Second post - how many posts will I make until I stop declaring what number post it is? I have to change a lot of things in my life. I have to commit myself to my goals and actually see them through. I have to stop being afraid of everything and just do the things that I say that I will do and the things I want to do. My life is probably more than half over and I still have not moved much beyond that 18 year old that I was way back when. I don't feel much more comfortable in my skin, sure of myself or any of that. I am so sick of hearing women say that the love their 40's because they finally feel comfortable in their skin, sure of themselves, confident. Ummmm.....me? Not so much.

I need to really think about what I want to do in my life - career wise, personal, etc.
I need to move forward with AA, and make progress more quickly. Life is really too short to procrastinate, especially now that time is against me.

First entry

There has to be a first post. It won't be what I want it to be. As I sit here trying to be thoughtful, funny, insightful and I realize that I am doing what I have always done in life and that is trying to be something for everyone. Writing for whomever may read this blog even though I know that most likely no one ever will. So, this is going to be my open and honest attempt at finding the real me and my real passions. Let's get to it...